When your brain is crapping up on you...

Today I had a good idea. An idea I liked at least. You or anyone else for that matter might find it stupid, but it sounded good to me. What do rational people do when they have good ideas? Well, in the old days I'd probably procrastinate on it and forget it by the time i hit the next day. But these days are different. These days I'm feeling like a working man. I do things. So you follow it up and try to see where it gets you. What happens if this idea lands you to a place where you are sick of the way things are going for you, while you're stuck at 6.00 in the morning feeling kinda sick, in a chair in front of a computer running your program for the gazelionth time while, you no longer have the brain juice to figure out what's wrong with it. And to top it off, you doubt how good your brain is these days because of strange incidents. Such as the whole rodent from hell thing, and the possibility that this was only happening in my head. The possibility that I might be needing psychiatric monitoring at the age of 21 is not as glam as it used to be back in the day. I mean I knew that one day I was definitely going to go nuts, but brain damage when you actually start finding something interesting can really be daunting. You see 48+ hours later still no sign of the rat and I'm still kinda hearing things. But unless the rat in awe realized whose house he was trespassing and went to commit suicide in honor of the master of the house he soiled (and that is if the rat was real) OR the possibility that the rat is french and waiting for the cheese on the traps to turn blue along with that bowl of red wine, there are only two more possibilities:

A. the rat has somehow mysteriously already left the house,
B. there was no rat to begin with

Because the ways in and out of the house do require more muscle and brains than I am willing to admit a rat that is not the reincarnation of Einstein might have, current evidence points mostly to B. In addition to that I do have to admit that I have not been giving my brain (and myself too) proper attention lately. Especially when it comes to sleeping habits I am a really lousy guy. At least my brain got really creative while trying to give me the word that I am not doing stuff right. So, what's going through my head while my brain wants to make his way out of it? Not a lot of stuff right now thanks to the fact that yet again I haven't slept for a while. A bit of satisfaction for the fact that another one of my ideas seems to be working alright. A lot of frustration cause I'm running out of brain juice to improve on that idea and further explore some others. Even more confusion when I'm trying to put the pieces of the rat puzzle together and yet I do not have enough evidence to just do so. It is now 6.30. The dawn is upon me yet again and the sky looks cloudy. It's almost inviting to forget about everything and just go to bed. Maybe I should do just that. On the other hand right now I'm in negotiations with myself, concerning if I should just try to (probably in vain) do some more work, till it's time to go to my supervisor meeting. Additionally I'm doing some research on rats. According to which rats are prone to upper respiratory problems. Starting to wonder here if my cigarette smoking has managed to scare the rat away. Hmmm, that would be a nice selling point for my dear tobacco companies. Have rats? Start smoking.

No, let's get serious. Let's take some facts about rats [according to wikipedia]:

1.Rats have a significant impact on food production. Estimates vary, but it is likely that anything between 1/5 and 1/3 of the world's total food output is eaten, spoiled or destroyed by rats and other rodents. -STOP WORLD HUNGER, KILL A RAT TODAY

2.The Black Plague is traditionally believed to have been caused by the micro-organism Yersinia pestis, carried by the rat flea Xenopsylla cheopis which preyed on Rattus rattus living in European cities of the day; it is notable that these rats were also victims themselves. -OOOHHHH Those poor little rats, it was like ratocide, and a few people died along the way

3.While modern wild rats can carry Leptospirosis and some other "zoonotic" conditions (those which can be transferred across species, to humans, for example), these conditions are in fact rarely found. -That's nice to know, i still wish that if you disagree with me you should die from leptospirosis tho.

4.Wild rats living in good environments are typically healthy and robust animals. Wild rats living in cities may suffer themselves from poor diet and internal parasites but do not largely spread disease to humans. -So, i had a malnutritioned rat in my house. If he's gone i certainly hope he never comes back and has bowel problems.

5. (about rat baiting):Before the contest could begin there was a requirement for the capture of potentially thousands of rats. The rat-catcher would be called upon to fulfill this requirement. A famous rat-catcher from Victorian England was Jack Black. -Jack Black followed up his rat catching career as an actor and musician. Moral of the story you might need to swim in rat shit in order to make it big in showbiz.

6.Although the payment would be high for catching and selling rats to breeders, there is a high risk of getting bitten. Rats are a carrier of disease and can be life threatening. Also, if you wind up in a location with a rat infestation, there is a liability of getting mobbed. - Death by a mob of rats, wtf? What can ever be more humiliating?

7. Rats have been observed to self-cannibalise their tails. -Well, do you think my rat ate himself? Hmmm

8. Either sex will make a good pet, however if you plan to purchase more than one, it is recommended that they are of the same sex, as rats breed quickly and often. -Rats get more action than me, why the hell should i be feeling bad for wanting to kill them?

9. Rats are part of the chinese zodiac system, famous rats have been:
Adolf Hitler
Heinrich Himmler
Kim II Sung, North Korean dictator
Peter the Great, Russian emperor and absolutist
Catherine I, Russian empress and absolutist
Alexander I, Yugoslavian king and dictator
Eva Braun, mistress of Adolf Hitler
Richard Nixon
-Just look at this list, some of the biggest Pieces of historical crap are rats. Do you still like them? Do you admit to having dreams of totalitarianism? Be very very careful with your answers from now on.

10. Finally I am a rat according to the chinese horoscope. Do you think that my visitor was a female rat who could no longer resist my species transcending sexuality?

Well a lot of developments here. Things to sleep on if I may also say. Especially if for yet another day i wake up without any sign of pest activity in my house reinforcing my belief in the possibility I have been spending a good amount of time hallucinating. At least i get a weekend off. Almost off. Just repeating old pieces of work. Hrmf. At least a good night's sleep? Not exactly , but still just some rest. Not exactly quality sleep, but rest. Time to clean up tomorrow. Sterilize the house. And maybe use a day for something else. Go someplace except london.
Hmmm, time for a night walk down the neighborhood. And down Abbey Road, with my shoes of soul.



A walk in Bayswater and some fresh air can be good right now. Clear my head for a bit. Hopefully.