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As any other good story I have, this one starts yet again with a cup of coffee, sometime in the morning of yet another sunny day. Where this story ends is a few minutes later, after having drunk that cup of coffee, finding me lying on my back and contemplating what would happen if I'd go back to sleep. Pretty weak don't you think? Another kid feeling like an old man? Well, these days i do realize that a lot of my peers in ages similar to mine tend to feel just like that. Sick and tired of almost anything going for them. Just passively taking whatever life's going to dish out for them and waiting for someone to get them of their lazy asses. And then it kinda hits you. This is not the way it's supposed to be when you're still in college, no matter what you're doing. But more and more people I know, and that would mostly include me, prefer to just be idle, waiting for someone to give them a call, or in their bed, unable to get up, or having their laughs under the same bed's covers. And that's it. A weird thought occurs to some of them, and that would be what would have been happening to me too i guess, but i quit that game, and the thought is, that's it right now, I'm supposedly doing something constructive with my life (that being just getting by in college), I have someone in my life (that again being a boy/girlfriend), i've got something to take care of that free time (take your pick here) and that's it, i feel complete. Well, I have one, very simple question. How the fark can you be feeling complete? You're 20 something and you think you feel complete because you have most of the things that someone your age is expected to have going?
I do not think that this is being complete. I believe that this is just settling for something less than you could be going for. But what's more? And how exactly is this a compromise? Let me explain: Most people just try to get by. Get by at college, while they could actually be getting their hands dirty with some digging deeper, getting by with their spare time, finding something to keep them pacified so they won't start screaming their lungs out when they realize that they're not really doing anything meaningful, getting along with the same group of good old friends because they don't really wanna be exposed to anything new, getting along with that boy/girlfriend because they're scared they might end up alone. And the funny thing is that most people kinda feel good about getting this deal, because they're going to get a college degree, and they're moving on along with a group of friends, and they've got that sweet relationship that keeps em going and they chose to kill the rest of their time by doing something while in wait for one of the afore mentioned feel-good factors to take place. I dunno about you but to me this sounds just like taking care of one's insecurities. This is just like reassuring oneself that "You know what? I'm pretty well off. I'm gonna have my shitty 9-5 job, a family and a social circle in a few years. Isn't this happiness?" I dunno, for some people this may really be happiness and success. But to me it's just like taking care of one insecurities.
This might sound really stupid, but I really do think that having insecurities is a good thing at this stage. To most people, they're just a sign that something's not right, that somebody's got problems, issues whatever. Well, i got news for you: there's always something wrong, and the universe doesn't settle the score just like that, and having problems and issues is only natural, the thing is what you choose to do about them. These are the sort of things that allow you to build momentum to move forward, to be better, to achieve and excel, to fulfill. To settle for nothing less than what you wanted. So my news and views are just the following, there are two choices when facing a problem arising from this sort of a situation. You've gotta deal with it if you don't wanna go mad, and you can either deal with it the same way most do, by compromising, or you might actually choose to give in and really do something about it. "Gee dude, you've got a weight problem? Well you know you have to love yourself and accept the way you are" OR "How about trashing all those twinkies and doing some sport for a change you lazy ass?" Your choice. I realize that most people consider me as a bastard. It's okay, I've acted like one on more than one occasions. And I don't think I can genuinely say I regret that. Being a bastard works fine for me sometimes. Especially the times I wanna be left alone. Which are significantly increasing in frequency whenever I decide I'm not afraid of being different.
"’cause he gets up in the morning,
And he goes to work at nine,
And he comes back home at five-thirty,
Gets the same train every time.
’cause his world is built ’round punctuality,
It never fails.
And he’s oh, so good,
And he’s oh, so fine,
And he’s oh, so healthy,
In his body and his mind.
He’s a well respected man about town,
Doing the best things so conservatively."
The kinks -- well respected man
two much old rock and red bull for me i guess. so what? everyone can take cheap shots sometimes